Somewhere unknown

I am somewhere unknown. I have been traveling this life, moving up, moving down. I have been carried by the stream of the river, I have also fought against its current.

I have been deep, below the water, I have not known where I was, neither have I dared to ask, not even seen the possibility of asking.

Suddenly I found this one in between worlds, I am somewhere unknown, and suddenly I can seem to ask ‘where am I?’. I am neither here, nor there. I feel unattached from my previous place, yet I haven’t fully emerged in a new place. I am in between worlds, somewhere unknown. I have been asking ‘who am I?’, ‘what is it all about?’. I don’t have an answer.

I am in the middle of somewhere I don’t know. It feels uncomfortable, painful, I seem to feel it all. All these questions are coming, questions I haven’t asked before. I don’t see answers nor do I hear them. Never have I been so uncertain. I don’t know, that is all I know. Something wants to know it all, yet it can’t, so there is the suffering I have been creating for me and all things around. I am somewhere unknown, neither do I know where I’m going. After fear there is a quiet place, a serenity, that makes me feel at home.

I do not know where I am going, it seems I am not to know, I keep traveling with all these questions on the journey I haven’t walked before.